Done Waiting!

Tonight I realized something, perhaps not for the first time, but it definitely hit home tonight. I have finally stopped waiting... waiting for God to bring me Mr. Right, waiting for Him to fix all my problems, waiting for my team to be perfect, waiting, waiting, waiting! I have spent so much of my life waiting (especially telling God that I won't go here or there or do this or that unless He found me a spouse). And tonight God finally allowed me to see that I am not really waiting anymore. I am living life. And not just living, but living to the fullest.

My life is so full: praying for so many people, loving on my team, teaching kids about their Father who loves them and wants a relationship with them, having coffee with local teens, fixing up rundown houses, encouraging the other foreign workers here, being a light into the darkness, and I could go on and on...

This isn't to say that I am not still longing for Him to provide me with a husband. But rather believing He will be faithful to give what I need for each step of my journey- wherever in the world I am. This isn't to say that I think I don't need His touch to "fix" and heal my brokenness. But rather believing healing and listening sometimes happens a lot better when we are engaging our hearts instead of sitting around waiting for Him to wave His magic wand...

I've spent enough of my life waiting. I am ready to be obedient and follow Him now- no distractions (with His strength!). Perhaps life will once again hold a time of waiting for me, but I pray it is because that is where He led me and not because I didn't follow Him like I've done so often in the past.