Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Stayin' Busy

Since I've been home, I've traveled to 5 different states (TEXAS, Missouri, Illinois, Oklahoma, and Arkansas). Whew... But more than that, I've gotten so many incredible opportunities to talk about Kosovo and what the Lord is doing there! It is such a blessing to share about Him! It has been a great time at home.

I also have had the chance to live with an amazing couple who've mentored me and been my friend through some difficult times. However, the sad part is they haven't been around much. Her father is in the last stages of cancer and so they have been in Florida for the majority of my time in America (keep her family in your prayers!). But when they were home, I got to have lots of fun with them!!

They work with the Senior High youth group at the church I grew up in, so I got recruited to help with the Lock-In...those would be more fun if you didn't have to stay up ALL night!

We played a game where 2 boys accidentally busted their eyebrows open- so fun to play "nurse" again. Here's one of them that I bandaged up and sent to the ER.

We had a campfire- complete with marshmallows and games when his parents came to visit!

There was a 3D movie playing at the nearby theater, so we went and watched that- Oh man, that was cool!

Thanks for loving me and investing in me!
I love you guys so very much!!!

Friday, November 13, 2009

The Windy City

A week ago I got the privilege to go visit a couple I know from Kosovo, who now live in Illinois, for a few days. It was an amazing time (I forgot to take any pictures, though...). But it worked out for me to travel home through Chicago, so I could spend a day and a half with my aunt and uncle there. It was such a blessing to be with them. However, I kept wondering why I would be dumb enough to travel to a place as cold as Kosovo- haha!


I finally got to see the church where my uncle has been a pastor at since before I was born- that was so cool!


This is my cousin and her 2 kids. I had met her when I was four...that was 21 years ago! We'd changed just a little bit since then!

Here's my aunt and uncle- they have been so good to me!
Love you two!

And here's what I decided I needed to be able to take everything I am wanting to take with me to Kosovo- it was anchored down or I probably would have carted that sucker away with me!


Thanks for all your prayers and love during this time while I am at home. God has been so gracious and good to me each and every day. It has been a rich, blessed time here!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Being Home

You might be wondering how I am doing...since I haven't posted in awhile. You might ask if I am enjoying being home. You might think I've been uber busy.
Well, I am just going to let this picture speak for things:
(I am happy to be home, I am just in a daze!)
The first thing I did was see my family!

Here's me with my newly married sister:


Here's my brother and dad grilling out.

My mom and me.
I went to my college roommate's wedding.

Saw one of my Kosovar friends...here!

And yesterday, I went to The State Fair of Texas with my mom and sister...in the pouring rain!

We ate Texas shaped nachos- yum!

And just enjoyed being in my "grand ole state"!

It's good indeed to be home for a bit!

ID Card Fiasco

So, to live in Kosovo, you are required to possess what we foreigners call an "ID Card". Sounds simple enough, huh? Well...just read on!

So, last fall when I first arrived in Kosovo, I went down to Prishtina, the capital, and applied for one- easy enough. They said it would be ready in 2 weeks and to come back then...which we did (keep in mind Prishtina is almost 2 hours away from where I live, on a very bad road!). They weren't ready...nor were they ready every other time we returned for the next 9 months (they kept telling us each time that it would be "just 2 weeks more"). Finally our cards arrived! They expired in 3 months!!!

So, 3 weeks before my card expired I headed back to Prishtina to renew my card- no biggie, you'd think! Well, it turns out that the problem which delayed the cards 9 months was going to prevent this from working. You see, the UN had moved out of Kosovo and Eulex- the European Union's form of police- had moved in. A change in powers always results in difficulties for people just like me who think things should "just go smoothly"!

So, I went to the police station (you can read the previous post about driving to Prishtina...) SIX times before my paperwork was accepted. I won't bore you with all the details, but that is a lot of traveling, being frustrated, sometimes wanting to bite someone's head off but not knowing enough Albanian to, and work! Finally on the last time...it worked! And you wouldn't even believe that the same people who had been so rude to us before were all smiles and jokes this time- man, you just never know what you are going to get!

So, hopefully my ID card will be awaiting my arrival back in Kosovo in December...but then again, you just never know in Kosovo!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

In Texas

(this is how Dallas feels to me right now...)

Hello Everyone!


This last month or so has been pretty complex and busy. Therefore, my absence from the blogging world... But I will try to update with some pics soon. In the meanwhile, I am posting to ask for prayer in regards to my time home. I've been here for approx 3 days and have already begun to feel overwhelmed with the planning and organizing that I must do to meet with everyone and also work out some things for the coming year for my team. God's teaching me a lot, and I feel so blessed to be back home for a time.


I can't wait to see you (if you live in Texas)!

Friday, September 18, 2009

To Live Is Great and To Drive Is... Scary!

In July a large part of my team returned home, taking with it two of the people who had been driving me around for the last year. So, I found myself being thrown into the driver's seat. Doesn't sound like something to worry about, in fact, one might be wondering why I waited almost a year to drive here. I mean, come on, haven't I been driving for a good many years now? Haha... Well, let me just explain:

First off, I have only ever driven a standard (stick shift) when I worked at camp for two summers. I think I've driven on roads with other cars maybe 3 times tops. So, I was nervous to drive our old, rag-tag van that had a lot of problems... that also was a stick! I must also explain a few things about the van. Even though we've fixed it a few times, sometimes the gear shift is pretty loose and sometimes the steering is very loose. The brakes have also been known to have problems (though sometimes the problem is the driver...). So, as you can imagine, I wasn't too thrilled to take over the driving for our team!

Secondly (and this could easily be thirdly and fourthly), driving isn't the same here. Not sure if you've ever attempted to drive in another country, but picture a place where rules don't really get followed and you have it! My time in Peru was the scariest place driving-wise, followed by Albania for a close second, and then comes Kosovo! Let me give you a few examples!

Stop signs don't mean stop, sometimes they don't even mean slow down. Driving the wrong way on a street is okay, and it might even be "more legal" if your car is facing the right way, but headed the wrong way (driving backwards!). Pedestrians always have the right away, meaning that any person can step out in front of you at any moment and you must stop! There are cows, horses, dogs, sometimes even chickens roaming the roads and even highways. There aren't any stop lights in my city, just crazy, congested intersections where everyone tries to go at the same time. Passing people is normal and even expected. A lot of the time it happens when there is no room to be doing so... And lastly (though I have dozens of other things), I live in the mountains!

Well, I've been driving since sometime in July and I've begun to feel pretty proficient. I've driven our old van up to camp and only nearly died by sliding off the mountain once (that isn't a joke!). And so, logically it only seemed right that I should brave driving to Prishtina, the super congested capital of Kosovo, right before I go home for a few months. Oh man! The ride there was alright (apart from realizing that our steering we'd just fixed had now become worse than before- pretty hard to control!). I navigated alright within the city and parked. We got out and took care of our business, and then found the car, paid the parking attendant, and began the hour and a half trek home. Getting out of the city is tricky- there isn't just one lane of cars for every one lane of road. So, you must fight to keep your place. After you reach the last round-about (you might have to research that a bit if you are an American), you normally feel home free. Well, not anymore! The construction that began a year ago when I arrived is still going on! By construction I mean a complete demolition of the road, in hopes that one day they will repave it. So, we drive on washboard, dusty roads that shouldn't be driven on...

I am not sure what brought my stress level to the max that it was at, but I was pretty much shaking on the inside the whole way home. Cars were flying past me with barely enough room to be passing, so I was slamming on my brakes to avoid them or the other car. At one point a dog darted in front of the van. I wasn't sure what the speed limit was. The sign said 30 kilometers per hour in the work zones, but I was going 6o and everyone was frustrated at me and zooming past... even the police! And keep in mind, the steering on my van was terrible- take your foot off the accelerator and control is lost as the steering wheel begins to convulse. It takes a good 5-10 seconds to regain control of things. Well, enter 3 big trucks- when I say big, I mean huge! Two belonged to the Italian troops that are working in my city, Peja. They were massive dump trucks... and they was driving soooo slowly! I edged out and passed one of them, then the other. The last large truck in the line was a semi with a trailer attached to it, carrying a very large bull dozer of sorts (if I was a boy, I would totally know the name!). So, this was a super long and wide vehicle. I waited for a while and then I got brave and began to pass. The road was clear and I made it half way around him with no problems. Well, a bit ahead some idiot in a green truck decided to pull onto the road, leaving me no room to finish passing. Normally this is okay, since there is technically enough room for 3 cars on the road if they all know what they are doing (which really isn't me...). But you must remember who I was passing- a near impassable trailer. So, logic says, slam on your brakes and go back behind him... That would work well if there weren't also 3 other big cars behind you also passing at the same time. Who really knows what happened! God saved me, but however my nerves were shot by this point. We didn't pass this truck until we were nearly to our home city. My poor roommate who was sitting behind me, and seemed to have all the advice in the world (even though she's never driven...), got the brunt of my frustrations. But don't worry- we apologized and worked things out later... when our feet were firmly on the ground again.
And there you have it- my first driving experience to Prishtina. Wish it was the last, but chances are there will be many more to follow- Ugh!
Watch out, Kosovars, for the big red van barreling down the road. Chances are it doesn't know where it is going or what it is doing... Hopefully it can steer and brake when it passes by you!

(Un)Fortunate Changes

Welcome to the Vision Center: for an entire year I've been waiting to clean the building up and repaint it. The walls were super dirty (many hands...and feet...have been on them). When you tried to scrub them, the paint just wipes off! So, when my two new team members arrived, I saw that as the perfect opportunity to get busy and "do a facelift".
The "fortunate" part in the title was that the walls were clean and sparkled again...

The "unfortunate" part is that the colors were pretty hideous:
Smerf Blue and Communist Khaki!
(what the girls named them)



Here's the library finished- it is split
(yellow top and khaki bottom).

The meeting room almost done
(all blue).

Whatever the results, one thing that was most beneficial:
We got to know each other better and enjoyed the time!


Friday, August 28, 2009

Montenegro: Europe's Secret

I am pretty aware that the majority of my blog readers will have no clue where or what Montenegro is, so let me do an introduction! Montenegro is one of Europe's newest countries. It used to belong to the former Yugoslavia (like Kosovo). It joins borders with Kosovo, but has a major difference. Montenegro is inhabited largely by people of Serbian origin; Kosovo is almost entirely Albanian. The country of Montenegro is one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen in my life! Mountainous, beautiful beaches, lush green, tropical feel, and it borders the Adriatic Sea- right across from Italy. So, here's some pictures from my week of relaxation there last week. I did a little more resting than picture taking, but here's what I have:
Posing in the older part of a city

An incredible sunset my first night.


Burning trash- I've decided we don't have any ozone over the Balkans...haha!

Don't call an engineer when you need a bridge; just build it yourself out of trash!

The view out of my friend's front door!!

Ping-pong on a stone table, anyone?

A beautiful beach- I actually didn't got to a single beach while I was there. :-o

You can rent these.

I just love how creation screams His Name to the ends of the earth! May the people of Montenegro have ears to hear and eyes to see!

Blogging Absence

So sorry that I've been the worst of all bloggers! August has been a really busy month here in Kosovo. I already wrote about camps and teams, but on top of that has been my own team members leaving and getting ready for new team members to come. I have felt, once again, out of my comfort zone, as this is all new territory for me.
Beginning in July, I became the team leader for my team. It is a new and exciting area and time for me, but it is also mingled with fear and insecurity. God has opened a lot of doors and led me through a lot this last year (and my life), but somehow my faith just still seems so small when I encounter a new situation. However, I would like to report that His grace indeed covers over all things: failures, insecurities, weaknesses, self-pride...and the list could go on.
I have been reading through the Gospels for some time now. Pretty convicting most of the time! But something I keep running into is the disciples- I am just like them! How often does He have to ask them where their faith is or say something about their lack of faith? Over and over! Yet, they were right next to Him for every miracle, every prayer, every sermon... The funny counterpart is the random Joe on the street is the one who always got told: "No greater faith is found in all of ____." Shouldn't it be the other way around?
But as I've thought on this time after time, it just keeps on reminding me: God doesn't normally use the glorious things of this world. He doesn't usually pick those people that have it all together. Instead, He picks the broken, clueless people who most of the time "just don't get it". And that is me! I find myself in that. And it gives me immense hope.
Here I am in Kosovo- honestly, I am the worst person to be sent to do what God's called me to do. I am a flop at most things I put my hands to do...or tell Him no that I won't do. Yet here I am. And the funny thing in it all, that we all know, but fail to really believe: He gets the glory! My life, no matter how big a mess I am or how broken and "floppy" I am, brings Him glory. He uses the clay pots, especially broken ones as myself. What a beautiful picture!
So, wherever you find yourself today: know that He is using you. In spite, or maybe even because, of all your brokenness! He gets the ultimate glory- rest in that today!!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Romanian Team

On July 10th a group of university students from Romania came to do some ministry with my team for 10 days. It was one of the biggest blessings from my entire year spent in Kosovo. Their hearts for God and mission were so contagious! Here are just a few pictures from our time together:
Out in a Gypsy village with a local pastor who has some ministries there.

The group out in the village- love this picture!

Another village- showing the Jesu Film.

Talking about hearts:
Sinful and Clean.

What His blood does:
washes our hearts clean!

A drama depicting the heart.

It is pretty self-explanatory...







HE came running!

Where is your heart being invested?

Thank you, my dear friends, for your hearts for the Lord and for the people of Kosovo. I am blessed to know you and now call you friend! His richest blessings on your lives- wherever He may call you!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Camps and Comfort Zones

In a previous post I put some pictures up of the camp I am working at 2 days a week. In this post I am going to talk about two of the camps I got to be involved in. I didn't get any other pictures than the above picture (that is of the second camp).
On June 30th one of my friends organized a leadership camp for 4 days up in the mountains. It was for all the organizations here to have a place to send their "more advanced" youth they've been working with. It was an intensive training time... and it was incredible. Originally I wasn't supposed to be helping out with the actual camp. But when I got up to camp on the second day, there had been some problems and I was asked to lead a small group. In my group were 10 people: 5 high school aged boys, 2 college aged women, 2 American high school students, and one older gentleman who was a Jehovah Witness. Interesting collection of people, huh? But it was an incredible time! God really moved in some of the guy's hearts, and He for sure touched my own! This past year I haven't had a lot of opportunities to do hands on leading of a small group (mainly because of the language barrier). So, this time was so special for me- to share my heart and passion for the Lord with these youth. One result has been that one of the young men has remained up at camp for the duration of the summer; helping lead the other camps. We aren't sure of his salvation yet, but he's become so dear to all of our hearts. Please, please keep him in your prayers!!!
The second camp was the group of kids that we all work with out in The Village- see the previous post for more about them! These kids are so dear to us all, and God has really worked in a lot of their hearts and lives. What a privelege to be a part of their lives for a week! But it was a difficult week for me as well. I have learned some Albanian during this year that I've been here, but I am so far from understanding everything that comes out of children's mouths- especially children from a village! However, because the team that was running the camp was from America, I was having to translate for the kids and the workers at times. It was pretty humbling at times. Not really inside any comfort zone for me! After the first day I became aware that one of the little girls had a terrible case of head lice. During my previous years of working at camp in America (Sky Ranch), we dealt with a lot of lice problems. Just talking about it makes my skin crawl. So, for me to have her laying on my bed, playing with my brush, sitting in my lap, playing with my hair... went against all that was logical and comfortable to me! But over and over God reminded me of what was more important: her feeling loved or me protecting my hair? After all, can't He protect my head? So, every day (more times than that, actually!) I committed my hair to the Lord and loved that little girl. I am happy to say that I didn't get lice. But even if I had, it would've been worth it! :-) How often did Jesus touch the leper, the outcast, the sickly when no one else would? Isn't that what we are called to do? The last way that I was extremely out of my comfort zone was on the way home. I rode the bus with all the kids down the mountain (30 kids, I believe). We'd hired a bus to take them home, and they were going to drop me off on the way. There weren't enough seats for the kids, so they were standing and crowding around everywhere. The bus driver decided it was hot inside, so he opened the automatic door. The kids were all hanging out the door as we drove at a rapid speed down the mountain. I almost lost it! But I am happy to say that I arrived home without permanately having lost all my sanity! That afternoon the team from Romania arrived... But that will have to be the next post!

Monday, July 6, 2009

Oh Kosov!

Above is the phrase that comes out of my mouth at least once a day. Many of the people I work and live with say it just about as much too. Basically what we are meaning is: Only in Kosovo! So, following are happenings from the past 24 hours...Enjoy the three-ring circus that is my life!

I was walking home last night from a nearby restaurant where we had all gone to eat after church. I was about halfway home when I heard my name called. Now, let's get something straight- your name is attached to your identity. It is personal and somewhat private. For someone to yell my name across the street and try to win my attention, they should probably know me or at least have a good reason for wanting to talk. So, my first mistake: I turned around. The man yelling my name didn't know me, but he was standing next to his older brother who I'd met once before (and thought I would be a perfect match for his little brother). What followed (after confirming that I was indeed an American...) was one of the most frustrating conversations I've had yet. He wanted to go for coffee this next week (that means basically going on a date). I rejected him on the basis that I will be up at camp and I am pretty busy right now. He inquired when I would be free for a coffee (mind you, this was all in severely broken English- I wasn't about to speak Albanian with him!). So, I cut to the chase and told him that my organization has rules about going out with the opposite sex, and I wasn't allowed. He became frustrated and began a few minute long rant about how he was supposed to find a girl to marry if he couldn't take her out for coffee and be alone with her; we are both believers after all. I don't remember much of what I said or was thinking at this point, I just remember watching his face, thinking it should be turning red from embarrassment... Nope! Nothing. I said, "Goodnight and Goodbye," and walked away...Marveling the entire way home at the amount of pride he had.

This morning I had a meeting with one of my friends here who is operating a real estate company. I am trying to buy a house for my team right now, and we were meeting at his office to work on some stuff. I walk up and he informs me that they'd been broken into the previous night and 200 Euros had been stolen. The police were on the way. So, I sort of sat to the side and flipped through one of the binders. Forty-five minutes later the police show up (I could've walked to the station twice in that time!). Two men in uniforms show up; one steps right inside the door and begins interrogating the secretary about whether anything had been touched (that lasted about 3 minutes). Then he and his partner go pull up chairs at the cafe outside, order coffee, arrange the chairs, and finally end up moving the table to be out of the sun. The secretary goes outside and, as they are trying to fill out the report, becomes the chief suspect...even though the door was forced open- of course, they wouldn't know that because they didn't look at the door! After a few minutes another cop comes, sits down, orders coffee, and begins the questions again. He didn't even enter the building. Two more police show up, and join in. My friend asked his secretary if they were going to fingerprint, and she said she had asked for that, but they wouldn't answer her (we were convinced they didn't know how!). Then two of the cops came inside and had a camera. At this point I had to leave, so I don't really know what happened. But it was one of the funniest things I'd ever seen...

Who needs TV when you can just live in a soap opera or comedy? I am taking applications to come visit...just email! :-)

Monday, June 29, 2009

~Birthday~

A bunch of us here had birthdays in June, so we all celebrated together with a cookout followed by waffles and strawberries. So good!
The store bought Kosovar cake- with Uno cards (for Hyun Sik's birthday).

Here's my homemade cake- MinHye (standing next to me) made it...her first time to ever make a cake! It was delicious! :-)
Game time: watermelon seed spitting contest. Competition at full force...but alas, I won! WooHoo!!!

My special team wishing me a Happy Birthday.


Thank you for all the birthday wishes.

It was a special day (apart from missing y'all)!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Gone a Campin'

Welcome to camp!
It is one of the prettiest, most serene places on earth. I love my time that I get to spend up there each week. Camps have been going on for a few weeks now. All your prayers are appreciated!
Here are the buildings that are sort of
finished/still being added onto.
Getting ready to lay concrete for the footings for the building expansion. Working with a few of the local teens.

My amazing boss up at camp!

Putting the beams up for the outdoor kitchen roof.


Kitchen Krew!

Working on getting the kitchen ready for summer.

The meadow above camp-
used for sports and meetings.

The dining hall:
eating can't get much better than this!


The beautiful Creator of this loves us! How can such a thing be possible? I don't know that I will ever know why... How utterly amazing!!


Monday, June 8, 2009

Women are... Objects?

-A bit of background information before I post-
There is a saying in Albanian that goes something like this:
For an Albanian man to marry an Albanian woman, she must be perfect in appearance, attitude, actions, etc. For an Albanian man to marry an American woman, any one will do.
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I've put off writing this post for quite sometime, because it is a touchy topic and I am not sure exactly how to go about talking about it. First off, I would like to say that this post isn't a rant against the culture and the religion I am living and working within. I could easily do that, due to the fact that many things "rub me the wrong way" often. They are injust and often disgusting, in my opinion. But rather, this post is a plea for everyone who reads it to pray for the Kosovar people- men and women alike.

When I was still in America I knew that I was coming to a predominantly Muslim country. I honestly knew little about that religion or the implications of that set of beliefs upon a country and culture. Trust me, the last 10 months have been a pretty thorough introduction! Well, the shock has worn off, and in its place now dwells a determination for justice, freedom, and a bigger life purpose for the women I encounter each day. Right or wrong- that is how my heart currently feels. So, I often sit in quietness and wrestle through my ministry here. How much of my frustration and demand for justice roots out of being an American? Do I just want these girls to have the same life opportunities as me? Am I fighting with Truth snapped to my belt or am I trying to branch out on my own? Do I seek to smother a culture and change it into what I view as being better? Or do I really, every day, set out upon my way with God's perspective, His love, His worldview, and His heart for the women I meet? What am I doing??? It is funny, because that seems like it is an everyday battle in my heart and mind.


For those of you that don't know much about Muslim culture, I will seek to enlighten you a bit... in regards to the women. A woman could be labeled as a status symbol, something to trade for, in some regards: a servant, or what I like to refer to as being an object. The culture I am working in now isn't what is called: Radical Muslim, so things aren't as extreme here as they would be in other countries that are known for being muslim. But the culture is still infiltrated with Islam on many levels. Examples would include the girls never leaving the house unless they are at the essence of their perfection. Rarely is a girl seen on the street unless she is in heels, make up, hair fixed, and skin tight clothing. She is on display anytime she leaves her front door. And the guys know that... and duly play their role in that. Girls walk by and the guys comment: "Hey Sugar!", "How beautiful", "Why don't you come over here...", etc. It is the culture. No one sees anything wrong with that. Another example would be that no one ever knows that a girl and guy are dating- not even the parents! It is considered that a girl would be "spoiled" if people knew she had been dating another boy. She wouldn't be perfect anymore. So, the rule isn't that they can't date, but rather that no one can know about it. The last example (though there are many) I will give is that a woman, once married, lives with her in-laws most often. Not only does she live there, she does everything for the family once she moves in. If a guest comes, she is responsible for waiting on them hand-and-foot. She spends her days cleaning, cooking, and whatever else the family is demanding. Rarely does she leave the house after marriage.

So, couple these things with all the other things I didn't mention (some which I find horrific), and try to picture in your mind what you would teach the teenage girls you are working with? Difficult, huh? The Bible has a lot to say about the roles of men and women, but is that truly my mindset? Or am I merely interpretting those texts with the American perspective? Do I even know how to present them in such a way that would be helpful to these girls? Their life is destined for marriage, and a life of service following the wedding. It isn't really like they have much choice in that. So, why not flaunt what you have and win the best man that you can win? Logical, huh? Scriptural, not really...

Anyway, I am not going to give you the answers (I don't have many myself), but I just want to present you with a pretty big obstacle I've faced. It isn't very easy to present the Word in such a way that it doesn't change a culture, but rather a heart. Pray for me and my team (and everyone else in our shoes)!!!

As far as the quote at the beginning, that is along the same lines, but a different sort of prayer request. I am American. I look very American. I sound very American. And I can't walk anywhere or go anywhere without that being obvious. The men's mindset when they see me is along the lines of: an American girl who is single and somewhat attractive (even if she does dress funny)- she can be my out for leaving this country or I can marry her to my son or so-and-so... It is pretty rare that I am not looked at in a sexual manner or talked to in that way. So, my request for prayer is this: that is taking its toll on me. It makes me angry and I want to fight out against that...in my own strength and not God's way. It makes me feel lonely, since I didn't do what "I was supposed to do" by finding a husband. And it makes me close to hating the male species often times. So, just pray for me. Satan has been attacking on this front pretty strongly lately. I could use all the prayers I can get. Thanks!