Emptiness

The summer is drawing near an end, at least in terms of summer programs with my team here. It has been an intense time of ministry, giving of myself, being exhausted, so much planning, and saying goodbye to so many close friends! Now that it is coming to a close, I am left feeling depleted and completely empty- beyond what words can portray. We all have times like this in life- where we've invested everything. It's part of living...but where do we go when we reach the bottom?

The hardest part of it all is that normally in the busyness of schedules and plans, prayer and listening to His Word gets put lower down on your priorities...Or maybe that's just cuz I'm not so holy yet. ;-) But it is really hard to regain your heart for prayer, your passion to delve into the depths of the Word, the quietness of heart to listen to His still voice, and the joy of journeying deeper into His heart. So, with the tiredness and emptiness come a feeling of aloneness. You wandered from Him, and the devil tries to convince you that He left you cuz you were too busy for Him or weren't faithful- WHAT LIES!

He's the Answer to all! He's the Rest for my weariness. He's the Companion in my aloneness. He's the Hope to my future. He's Fullness to my emptiness...

Now if only I could get my heart to listen to the Truth and rest in my All In All- the Great I AM who is eagerly awaiting my heart and attention this very minute!