Blogging Absence

So sorry that I've been the worst of all bloggers! August has been a really busy month here in Kosovo. I already wrote about camps and teams, but on top of that has been my own team members leaving and getting ready for new team members to come. I have felt, once again, out of my comfort zone, as this is all new territory for me.

Beginning in July, I became the team leader for my team. It is a new and exciting area and time for me, but it is also mingled with fear and insecurity. God has opened a lot of doors and led me through a lot this last year (and my life), but somehow my faith just still seems so small when I encounter a new situation. However, I would like to report that His grace indeed covers over all things: failures, insecurities, weaknesses, self-pride...and the list could go on.

I have been reading through the Gospels for some time now. Pretty convicting most of the time! But something I keep running into is the disciples- I am just like them! How often does He have to ask them where their faith is or say something about their lack of faith? Over and over! Yet, they were right next to Him for every miracle, every prayer, every sermon... The funny counterpart is the random Joe on the street is the one who always got told: "No greater faith is found in all of ____." Shouldn't it be the other way around?

But as I've thought on this time after time, it just keeps on reminding me: God doesn't normally use the glorious things of this world. He doesn't usually pick those people that have it all together. Instead, He picks the broken, clueless people who most of the time "just don't get it". And that is me! I find myself in that. And it gives me immense hope.

Here I am in Kosovo- honestly, I am the worst person to be sent to do what God's called me to do. I am a flop at most things I put my hands to do...or tell Him no that I won't do. Yet here I am. And the funny thing in it all, that we all know, but fail to really believe: He gets the glory! My life, no matter how big a mess I am or how broken and "floppy" I am, brings Him glory. He uses the clay pots, especially broken ones as myself. What a beautiful picture!

So, wherever you find yourself today: know that He is using you. In spite, or maybe even because, of all your brokenness! He gets the ultimate glory- rest in that today!!